Chapter 25 Fucked and Cried
“Do you think what you claimed will have an effect on me, Elizabeth? Well if you think so then I suggest you think again. I will never give up on Cholo no matter what happens. You are having a child with him? No problem. It’s either you give it to me or I have to put the two of you in jail. It’s clearly against the law. I’m sure people nowadays won’t tolerate cheaters, right mom?”
I looked sarcastically at Cholo’s mother who blushed again with anger.
“Karina,” Cholo reprimanded me, seeming to have recovered from his surprise earlier. I turned to him violently.
“Is that the reason why you have been cold to me lately? Are you two really going to have a baby together?
How could you do this to me, Cholo?”
His face darkened before he held me firmly by the arm.
“Stop this, Karina. We’re in the middle of eating.”
I waved his hand away from me. I looked at his silent cousins.
“But that’s exactly the point! We are eating in silence and then Elizabeth just decided to burst out a lie. And oh who are we fooling, Cholo? Let’s face it. Your cousins and mom herself would love to see us break up. She didn’t accept me before and until now, no matter how hard I try to change myself for you.”
Cholo stood up at the table and wiped his mouth with a table napkin.
“That’s it. We’re going home. Stop embarrassing me already.”
He pulled me by the hand but I didn’t let him.
“No, I’m not yet done.”
I faced Elizabeth again who was looking at me with wide eyes.
“Isn’t this what you want to happen? For my husband and I to break up so that you can have him! But sorry to break it to you but I have to stop you right there. I know you are not pregnant and you will never be pregnant. You’re infertile, Elizabeth. You can’t bear a child so you will never be a mother forever! You’re a liar! Are you really that desperate that you have to lie just to take Cholo away from me?”
“Karina!” Cholo shouted angrily at me but I ignored him.
I’m too invested in terrorizing his mistress.
“What?! Why can’t you answer?! Isn’t it true that you can’t get pregnant so you can never be a mother! You’re always a big fat liar, Elizabeth!”
Donya Teodora stood up at that point and pointed her fingers at me.
“You have no right to tell those nasty things to Elizabeth! Remember you are not part of this family, Karina Versoza!”
I looked at Elizabeth who is sobbing in her seat. I can’t help but gasp at her fakeness. Crocodile tears. Nothing will ever make me stop from drilling it into her mind.
“Oh really, mom? Am I really not part of this family? Did no one tell you that I am no longer a Versoza? I’m a full-fledged Gastrell now and nothing, not even your unacceptance, can change that fact.”
I raised an eyebrow at the crying Elizabeth.
“Something the likes of you cannot relate, bitch.”
“That’s it,”Cholo said before dragging me out of the house.
I didn’t fight anymore. I just left a sharp glance at the still crying woman. Cholo let go of me when we got to his car. He took a deep breath, frowned, then looked at me full of hatred.
“Get in the car.”
I didn’t do anything but follow him when he got into the car first. He immediately started the car even though I hadn’t closed the door quite yet. I feel that Cholo is very angry. I can see and feel how he is maneuvering the car.
We’re driving past the speed limit but Cholo didn’t seem to mind. He still continues to drive the car as if he intends to make it fly. I froze as it sped up even more. My chest started to tighten because of the scenes playing in my mind. Catching my breath, I clenched my fists and started doing the breathing exercise.
“Y-You’re going too fast! Stop! Do you want us to die?!” I screamed nervously.
He didn’t move. Instead he drove it even faster. That’s when I was alarmed. I’m already having chills and my back is wet with sweat. Any minute now, I might breakdown which is something that Cholo must not able to see.
“What the hell?! If you want to kill yourself, do it alone! Just kill yourself!”
I hit him on the arm even though I was shaking with so much nervousness. After a while, we went back to normal speed. I breathed a sigh of relief. I simply held my tight chest and gasped for air. A few minutes passed before we reached the house. He threw me into the room and angrily confronted me.
“What was that for?! Karina, you are so rude! You’re the rudest person I’ve known!” bulyaw nito sa akin.
His face and neck were red, his vein was about to come out. I grabbed my hurt arm before gritting my teeth to answer.
“Wow! Now I’m the rude one? Are you blind and deaf? Did you see how your family treated me?! They see me as a garbage Cholo and you didn’t even bother to defend your own wife!”This content provided by N(o)velDrama].[Org.
“How can I know that it’s the truth?! How can I defend you if everything they say is true? But what you did earlier to Elizabeth and mom, it was so insensitive and disrespectful! Did you see how they were affected by what you were saying? Did you see how she has been reduced just because you have to slap her face the truth?”
“It’s not my fault. She started it. She lied. Maybe she still thinks that I’m still the ignorant girl from the past who knows nothing about digging her own damn past to be my bullets. Well, unlucky for her because she underestimated the wrong person. I’m not the past Karina she can trudge on. I’ve changed. I have no choice but to be this wicked monster because of them!”
My lips were agape and Cholo was just staring at me in disbelief. His resigned look is like that of someone who never believed every word that I said.
“You blame others for the sins you committed yourself. Why are you always throwing everything to my family when we both know they can’t do that to you? We know they don’t like you very much but your accusations against them are too much. I have to defend them now against you!”
I smiled bitterly then laughed afterwards. I smiled and raised my face. If only he knew then he would never say this but it’s not yet the time. I’m not stupid enough to pull out my card right away.
“Oh really, Cholo? How sure are you? Are you with them every day? Every minute? Second? Do you know about their thoughts, their actions, their words that they chose to hide from you?”
He sighed and shook his head in annoyance.
“Fuck this life! What do you really want, Karina?! Can’t you just tell me what you really want? I’m getting tired of playing this sick game of yours!”
He turned around. I could see how he was trying hard to control himself.
“That’s it, Karina. Today I’m filing an annulment and I will do everything in my power to keep it a secret. I cannot tolerate you anymore. It’s about time that I fulfill my promise to Elizabeth that I will marry her.”
He started walking towards the door while I was left on the side stunned. Finally, I regained my senses when I saw him opening the knob of the door. What he says cannot happen.
Never as long as I’m alive.
I took a few steps to the side table and grabbed the lamp shade and threw it at the door. Bits and pieces of it spread throughout the room. Cholo’s attempt to open the door was halted because of what I did. He faced me with raised eyebrows. I lifted my face and smirked at him dangerously.
“Do it. Do it Cholo and I swear, you will curse the day you were born! Come on, dear husband. Do it! Then after you spend the night loving her and cumming all over her, prepare to see your everything crumble into pieces. By then, I swear, you will see the things I can do. Bite the trap babe and I’m willing to let hell loose. I have nothing to lose anymore, but you… your life, your family, your money, and your love is hanging by the thread I play with my own palms. Just call me if you’re ready to lose it all. By then, I’d be happy to be your leech. I will make sure your family will be nothing after I do that. Do you think I don’t know the secret of your whole family and the Asturians? Well, you seemed to be underestimating me just like your family, hub. You’ll leave me? Then prepare to see your mother behind the bars. I heard she made some integral discrepancy with the contract with the Chinese on the 20-billion flagship road in Cerro Roca. You want to see your dearest mother behind the bars, Cholo?”
He took a step between us before pushing me against the wall and holding me tightly by both shoulders, his eyes burning with a mixture of bitterness, pain, and anger.
“What do you really want from me, Ms. Versoza?” he asked in a surprisingly calm tone.
I stared at my husband’s blank eyes. I’m looking for something, something beyond his anger for me, something that will make me surrender everything. But I can’t get anything out of it. Only hatred. Maybe… Maybe we really have no hope so I’m just clinging to the last thing I can think of.
“I want you, Cholo. I want your heart. I want your body, yo-”
“So you want my body?! So if I shag you all day and all night, will it be enough for you to stop meddling in my life? If I satisfy you sexually, would that be enough for you to stop messing with our lives? Will that be enough, Karina?”
Instead of answering, I just pulled him closer and kissed him while letting my tears fall.
This is the only thing I can do for now.
He was slightly stunned for a moment before he immediately responded. He took me by my cheeks and punished me with a kiss. Cholo’s kiss was violent immediately. It was painful and I’m not used to this kind of kiss. His kisses used to be careful with me.
He tore off my top and threw it on the floor. My bra, shorts, and panties followed. I also undressed him. I ripped open his shirt and fumbled over his zipper.
He pinned me to the wall and bit my lips a little too roughly. I tasted blood but instead of pushing him away, I clung to him to feel more of him against me.
The ambiance was never romantic and I obviously know that it was just a hate sex on his part but for some reasons, it turned me on instantly. I wanted him. I wanted him for so long that it didn’t matter if he’s only doing it because he hates me. It’s okay. I can get used to it for now.
Tongues and teeth on each other, saliva dripping down our throat, our bodies moving in a feral rhythm while we chase after the high, the wild heat in our core.
He was busy inserting his fingers on me when I reached for his boxers and touched his dick. We both moaned when he started moving his fingers in and out of my slick opening while I continued caressing, palming, and nudging his shaft.
“Now do you liked it? Do you like how I make you feel like a slut? Is this really what you want to happen? Cause if you say yes then there will be no turning back. I’ll take you like a slut like how the men in your life took you without gentleness,” he whispered in my ear.
I couldn’t answer when he kissed me again and carried me to the bedside table. He sat me down before spreading my legs and sliding his fingers back inside me.
I closed my eyes when he lowered his mouth and bit my nipple. I should have pushed him away. I should have ended it earlier because I was hurting physically and mentally but I just let Cholo go because I wanted to know how long I could handle it. I needed to know if it’s really time to end it all.
But my body said it can take another blow. It’s loving his kisses, his touch, his moans even though it’s devoid of any gentleness I used to experience in his hands.
“Oh…” A moan escaped my parted lips as he added another finger inside me and quickened the pace.
I clung to his shoulder when I couldn’t take it anymore and I was about to burst. But the devil incarnate stopped and smirked at me.
“I won’t let you cum in my fingers, Karina. I can’t let our first time be this way,” he said while bringing his wet finger to his nose to sniff. And then he slowly licked it while staring at me.
I breathed hard. I don’t know but it’s the sexiest view I’ve ever seen in my life. And it heightened my horny hormones all the more.
“Oh, so you wanna do it in bed then?” I asked in a breathless voice while still staring at his finger that was still in his mouth.
“Bed? The likes of you don’t deserve to be fucked in a bed. I’ll take you here… now.”
After saying that, he completely took off his shorts and boxers then made me face the wall. I heard the tearing of a plastic foil and then I felt him on the crack of my butt positioning himself. I bent over to help myself accommodate and then he rammed himself inside me.
I squealed a little when I felt a searing pain. It’s been too long since I’ve done this with him. I felt him stop behind me.
“Fuck,” he muttered when he realized what he just discovered.
He didn’t move to let me adjust with his sudden invasion. He hugged me from the back and whispered.
“How long since you’ve done this?”
I didn’t answer because of the lump in my throat. If I did then I would have to tell him everything. He grabbed me to face me but I stopped him.
“It’s better to shag me this way, Cholo. After all, it’s just your body I wanted.”
He stiffened for a moment before I felt him move. He’s not aggressive this time. He didn’t have the violent movement earlier. His back and forth movement was full of gentleness. My tears fell spontaneously when I remembered that he treated me like this the last night we were together. The pain of remembering those happy memories came like a hurricane to me.
It’s when I promised to myself that I’ll never be back in this town and it’s the first promise that I have to break now.
He kissed me on the back towards the neck while his hands were gently holding my waist, the movement was gradually speeding up. He grabbed my breasts and kissed my nape. Our mixed sweat felt sticky. He tried again to turn me up front but I stopped him again. I didn’t want him to see that my face was still wet because of soundless crying. He pressed his chest to my back and angled my neck for him to kiss as we both sped up.
Sweat dripping, our temperature on high, and our bodies moving in a perfectly imperfect beat. Second by second, we drove into the ascent until everything was still and all I could hear was the throbbing of our hearts and the wet thrusts down below.
I clung to Cholo’s arm that was wrapped around my waist as I completely shook.
He followed afterwards.
He kissed me on the nape while he slowly discarded his manhood away from me. I watched how he tied the condom and threw it in the trash can.
My face was red with a mixture of confusion, embarrassment, and anger.
I can’t accept the fact that I willingly let him use me like a slut because he thinks I’m one. I can’t just accept that I let myself be abused this way. But… I have to do this if it means getting the justice that we deserve.
Still feeling weak, I forced myself to go to the bathr. Just one wrong move, just one more trigger, I could release the secrets I’ve been keeping for eight years.
My whole body was shaking as I wiped my face and opened the bathroom door. I still heard a faint call coming from Cholo before I closed the door and opened the shower. With my hair down, I sat under the rushing water and closed my eyes. I covered my mouth when I started to cry which turned into a whimper as the events that happened earlier came back to my mind over and over again.
Those eyes… I can never forget those pairs of orbs that have looked at me with disgust earlier.
It’s okay… It’s okay if she looks at me like that. It’s okay because I was given the opportunity to live the memories that I will carry with me forever and will continue to remember forever.
I buried my face between my knees and cried. I’m crying for the memories that will never come back. I’m crying for the most important person that I lost forever.
The water stopped pouring and there was a towel that dried my hair, face, and whole body. Cholo then wrapped me in a towel and put a robe on me. He then picked me up and deposited me on the bed. I lay on my side as I continued crying. I never opened my eyes. After a while, his arms wrapped around my waist and hugged me. I felt a kiss on the head followed by the words I’ve been waiting to hear from him for years.
“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, Karina.”
Sorry… I repeated in my mind.
I hope your sorry could undone everything Cholo but I know it cannot and for that, I’m sorry too.