63. The Sad Reality
63. The Sad Reality
CHAPTER 63: The Sad Reality
SHE'S PREGNANT... AGAIN. Instead of being happy about the news, Lilian couldn't help but to feel
worried. This will be the second time that she's going to bear a baby and the first one didn't turn out
well.
Lilian couldn't help but to question herself even more. She's blessed with another baby by the goddess.
But can she really be a good mother in the future? She lost her first baby before... reason for her to
think that she doesn't deserve to be a mother. And it freaking hurts for her.
"This is your second pregnancy, Luna. This might be crucial to you since your first was..." Penny
sighed, not really having the heart to complete what she's saying since it was a bit sensitive on Lilian's
part. And aside from that, Calyx and Nadia might now know about it yet. She's not in the position to tell
them.
"You're overworking yourself the past few days, Luna. From now on, I will not let you do the work alone
in the pack. You need to seek help," Calyx said as he sighed deeply.
He never expected this to happen. This might be really hard for Lilian since Alpha Karius is not on her
side anymore. And he knew how Lilian really worked hard for the past few days to get the trust of some
wolves here in the pack who's not really in favor of her as the new alpha of the pack. And sometimes,
even though Lilian was hiding it, Calyx could feel her sadness. He understands why she's pouring all
her attention to her work because she wanted to forget the pain of losing Alpha Karius, but now that
she's pregnant, he will do everything to make everything light for her especially now that she's
pregnant.
Lilian remained silent, still processing what she found out in her head. The truth is she feels really...
scared at this moment. She's scared for her child inside her. There are so many what ifs in her head
right now that she couldn't form the right words to say.
And the thought of getting all through this without Alpha Karius on her side is making her anxious even
more. Can she really do this alone?
What if... what if, like the first one, she will lose... no. She won't. She can never bear the pain of losing
another angel again. It will kill her for real this time.
"What do you want, Luna? Is there any food that you want to eat? I could prepare it for you right away,"
Nadia said with her worried expression. Among the three, she's the one who's showing more emotions
right now. Nadia could still remember how Lilian fell on the floor earlier. And if she fell the wrong way,
something bad might happen to her. And she will blame herself for that. Nadia doesn't want to think
about it anymore.
Lilian let out a deep sigh. "Just... leave me alone for a moment," she said instead, not sure anymore
how she was able to say that.
They all nodded and moments later, they left her inside the room.
Lilian bit her lower lip as she closed her eyes. Will she become a good mother to her child? Can she do
this alone?
***
"LUNA, THIS IS good for your pregnancy and your morning sickness. Here eat this..."
Lilian snapped out from her thoughts when she heard the familiar voice of Nadia again. She already
stopped working to be more focused on her pregnancy. She will only help Calyx with some light works.
Good thing he's good at what he's doing and would ask her some of her insights sometimes.
It was a challenge for her to stop working actually. Her head is not preoccupied again which means
she's going to think about Alpha Karius again.
Sighing, Lilian smiled at Nadia. "Thank you, Nadia," she replied as she looked at the wide garden
again. She prefers having her breakfast here since the air and weather is nice for today. It's a perfect
way to relax early this morning.
She woke up early because of her morning sickness. And Lilian was glad that Penny is staying in the
mansion for the meantime to always check on her.
Speaking of the mansion, Lilian decided to stay there from now on. She won't be staying in the tree
house for the time being since it's dangerous for her. She needs to take care of herself thoroughly.
"Are you okay, Luna? Do you need anything?" Nadia asked, still not leaving Lilian.
Lilian shook her head. "Yes, I'm fine. Don't worry."
Nadia sighed, still not really sure if she's going to leave Lilian already. She saw the hesitation and
worries in Lilian's eyes yesterday after Penny told her that she's pregnant. And Nadia also found out
about her first pregnancy. Now, everything had sunk into her. Lilian's hatred before towards her and
Alpha Karius was valid. She's not justifying her revenge but somehow, maybe it was her way to cope
up with the pain that she bore for a long time when she was away from the pack.
Nadia clearly understands everything now. So, she promised to herself that she will do everything for
Lilian from now on.
"You can leave, Nadia. I'm sure there are so many things to do in the mansion right now. I will be fine
here," Lilian said again.
Nadia became silent for a few seconds. "Luna..."
"Yes?"
"E-Even though you don't really like my presence that much, I will always be here for you," Nadia said,
not really sure how she found the courage to say those words.
Lilian nodded as she smiled. "I'll take note of that, Nadia."
Nadia also smiled before she stood up and said, "Call my name if you need anything, Luna." She finally
took her leave after that and went back inside the mansion.
Meanwhile, Lilian's heart melted the moment she realized that she's not really alone in this pregnancy.
Nadia is there. Penny and Calyx are also there for her. The other new helpers are also there to help
her.
She smiled. At least she has them all.
Lilian started eating the food that Nadia gave her and ate. It was actually good for her but she doesn't
like the smell. But for her baby, she will endure it. It's healthy for her pregnancy so she will eat it for her
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In the midst of her meal, the wind blew her face, making her smile again. But she dropped her spoon
immediately when she saw a silhouette near the flowers where she used to run before.
Her brows furrowed. "Who's that?" she asked, even though she's not actually sure if there's even
someone there.
Lilian immediately stood up and quickly went to the direction where she saw the silhouette. But then,
her eyes widened in shock when the familiar scent lingered in the air as she gasped for air.
"A-Alpha Karius..." Lilian whispered his name as her eyes watered, still trying to find him. "Alpha
Karius!"
Lilian knows that she's just hurting herself. She knew that it was... so impossible that he's really here.
But she was able to smell him! His scent still lingers in the air!
She couldn't help but to cry as she tried to find him. But to her disappointment, she couldn't see him. It
was making her heart hurt even more.
"P-Please, stop this game, love. Come o-out now..." she whispered again as she sobbed painfully.
No, she could smell him! He's here! He's still here!
"Luna!"
Lilian gasped when she heard the familiar voice of Calyx. She saw him with his worried expression.
"What are you doing here?" asked Calyx. "And why are you crying?!"
"C-Calyx! Can't you smell him? Alpha Karius is here! He's here!" Lilian desperately told him while
crying.
Calyx brows furrowed. "What? What are you saying--"
"I was able to sniff his scent!"
"But that's impossible! Alpha Karius is dead! He's gone!" Calyx suddenly shouted.
And Lilian felt like she had been poured with cold ice. Yeah, right. He's... dead. So, it's really
impossible. What Calyx said is the sad reality.
It's impossible that she was able to sniff his scent.