CHAPTER 16
CHAPTER 16
Moments pass and I hear Trevor retreat back down the stairs, his feet slamming down hard onto the steps in rage. He's leaving me alone?
"I swear it to you, I will kill her slowly if she gets in my way again!"
My blood runs cold at his words.
My hands begin shaking profusely and I drop my bag to the floor in shock. My phone and clothes spill out but I don't care. I walk over to my bed and slide down onto the floor beside it, feeling my body and mind turn completely numb. Kill me. Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.
The thing that disgusted me the most was that my own mother didn't disagree with him. She didn't argue back or stick up for me. A normal mother would call the police, kick him out the house in fear for their daughter's safety.
I feel bile rise to the back of my throat and run to the bathroom, nearly missing the toilet bowl. My eyes sting and I let out a tiny gasp, kneeling against the toilet for support. Tears roll down my cheek and I whimper, my entire body shaking in fright.
The constant years of abuse finally began to hit me all at once and I fing it impossible to breathe. Every single beating runs through my mind, Trevor's cruel taunts and evil eyes.
I have to get away from here.
Where would I go? Trevor would find me.
I have no choice, I'm trapped.
The thought of Trevor continuing to beat me, (if not worse) sent chills running through my entire body. I lay against the cold tiles, pulling my knees to my chest and shivering in fright.
"Please God, let this all end." I cry out, my chest heaving with sobs. My father's face flashes through my mind and I yell out, kicking the wall opposite me in frustration. I know it wasn't his fault but I couldn't help think this wouldn't have happened if he didn't die.
"Why Dad, why?!" I yell at the bathroom ceiling, feeling my cheeks soaked with tears.
"Why did you leave me?" I whimper quietly, tugging at my hair. Despite the strands being locked around my fingers, I feel no pain. Instead my thoughts begin to swirl around my head, going so fast I can barely understand what's going on around me. I feel my sanity slipping away second by second and my heart rate goes insane from fear and anger.
My jaw clenches tightly and I tug at my hair harder, feeling anger towards myself.
Why am I not strong?
If only I could find the strength to expose Mum and Trevor but I am weak. Ever since my father left me alone in this cruel world, I began to slowly fall apart. A piece of me chipped away day by day and I had come to realise that I didn't even recognise myself anymore.
I'm a broken shell that was once the loving and fun Emily Wentworth.
Its like a sudden switch goes off inside me and I suddenly feel numb. Numb to the pain and heartache taking over my body.
The most terrifying emotion a person can feel is absolutely nothing. Feeling nothing means you simply don't care anymore. You don't care about yourself and that is more dangerous than someone holding a gun at your temple, ready to shoot. You feel no fear, no anger, no pain.
I slump backwards against the tiles, my eyes staring straight ahead in a daze. I don't know how long I remain like that.
I don't know whether it's minutes, hours or days.
Eventually my eyes flicker shut and I see darkness. I fall into a sleep, feeling absolutely nothing.