We all want what we can’t get
Martin’s POV
I had just finished having breakfast in my favorite restaurant and was about to get into my car and rush back to work when I saw Lily walking alone with a moody expression on her face.
My heart twisted at the sight and all I wanted was to wrap my arms around her until she felt better.
I stood there watching her until she got close to me. She seemed to be so lost deeply in thought that she did not even see that I was standing in front of her.
She bumped into me and almost fell but I caught her quickly. I couldn’t let her fall. I knew how clumsy she was and sometimes I found it really cute.
She finally looked at me with surprise written all over her face.
“Are you okay?” I asked her worriedly as I helped her steady herself.
“Ye.. yes, I’m okay”. She responded still looking at me in shock.
“I saw you walking down from afar and you looked quite troubled. Are you sure you’re okay?” I asked scanning her face and body for any sign of discomfort.
She was so beautiful and I couldn’t help but get lost in her beautiful brown eyes. She was wearing a brown fitted gown that accentuated her beautiful curves. The gown was causal and at the same time formal. It was a mixture of a Little bit of both. On her feet were pink sandals paired with a pink shoulder bag.
My hands were still on her waist and the feeling of her soft skin drove me crazy. She was so perfect.
I noticed how her confused expression changed to one of discomfort. I began wondering what it was because I never wanted to see her that way.Content held by NôvelDrama.Org.
“Is something wrong?”. I asked cautiously staring deeply into her eyes.
“Can you… uhm.. move back a bit”. She responded shyly her eyes looking everywhere but mine as she pushed me slightly.
I dropped my hands by my side and moved back away from her, giving her space before I spoke up.
“I’m sorry, I did not mean to make you uncomfortable”. I was deeply hurt that she did not even want to be close to me for a minute. Did she really hate me that much?.
“It’s alright. So what are you doing here?.” She asked with a shy smile on her face.
“I came for some food”. I replied pointing back to the restaurant I was just in. “I was rushing back to work when I saw you. So tell me what are you doing around here ?” I asked back the same question.
“Well I just got a Job at Brew cloud”. She said with so much excitement, her eyes shone brighter as she spoke and her mouth lifted up with a smile.
The sight alone lifted my mood. I would do anything to keep her happy if I get to see her this way every time.
“That’s good news. Congratulations Lily.”
“Thank you, I was even given a customized shirt and I start tomorrow”. She responded still smiling waving a bag that I just realized she had been holding in my face.
I smiled at her cute behavior before I asked the question that has been bugging me.
“So why did you look sad if you just got a job”. I asked curiously with my hands folded.
She looked to be in deep thought as her nose was scrunched up and her brows furrowed. It was all of these things she did that made her so beautiful. I couldn’t help but chuckle lightly at the sight.
“It’s nothing”. She responded tight lipped. I’m guessing she doesn’t want to share the reason with me but I’ll have to take what I can get.
“Alright then but if you ever need anything don’t hesitate to come to me.” I said sincerely.
“Yeah, thanks. Shouldn’t you be on your way to work now”. She asked nervously.
I groaned internally wishing I could spend more time with time even if it was spent in silence.
“Yeah sure. Let me drop you off first”. I offered
“No, it’s alright I’ll get a taxi from here”. She refused politely.
“Lily, I insist”. I tried to cajole her. I didn’t want to leave her just yet.
” you’re already late and taking me home would make it worse for you so no, you should get going now”. She said firmly with her hands on her waist.
She looked so pretty as she tried to act serious. Although there was a lot of sense in what she said.
Don’t judge me please, whenever I’m close to her I can’t seem to think straight and she’s the only one I see and think about.
“Alright then, See you some other time Lily”. I finally agreed with her and I waved at her before getting into my car.
She waved back with a shy smile on her face and that was the last thing I saw before I drove off.
I had always had a thing for Lily ever since we were kids. At first i thought it was just a silly crush that would eventually go away but as time went by and she continued growing into such a wonderful and sweet soul, the tiny crush I had grew into love and now here we are.
I had always watched her from afar afraid of confessing my feelings for fear of rejection from her. I avoided being close to her as though she was a plague as I did not trust my self around her.
I mean look her, from her gorgeous face and beautiful curves she was certainly out of my league.
I had always watched her and I’m positive I know her so well like the back of my hand.
Lily was one to always wear her emotions on her sleeves and so you could always tell whatever she was thinking just by watching her. That was always one of the many reasons I was drawn to her.
That was also how I knew she would never reciprocate my feelings for her. They way she looked at Alex, the way she acts around him, even a blind man would know that she’s head over heels for him. But Alex doesn’t see her and it pains me or perhaps he does but just ignores her.
It pains me because I know she’s hurting, loving someone that doesn’t feel the same for her. I can relate to the feeling but no matter how much I want her for myself, it pains me to see her that way because of Alex
He doesn’t even deserve her love and thinking of all he does just makes me want to feed him
maggots and bleach.
But it’s life and reality for us all. We all want what we can’t get.
But from now hence, I would no longer hold back, regardless of the fact that she is married to Alex.
Alex obviously doesn’t care for her and all I have to do is work extra hard so I could get her out of the marriage and pay off whatever the contract clause entails.
I need to have her for myself and soon enough when she also see that Alex would never treat her the way she deserves to be treated, she would learn to love me.
I’m convinced that we’re meant to be.
Lily will learn to love me one day, just wait and she’ll be all mine.