I Want You
“What did you just say?” Bryce inquired for the third time that evening. He didn’t exactly what to feel or how best to contain the excitement coursing through his veins.
Listening to Hera say those words to him felt like a dream. A wild dream or was it a fantasy dream? What exactly do you call a dream that you didn’t think was ever going to happen but then it did happen and now you’re suddenly feeling ecstatic about it? Yeah, that was exactly how Bryce felt at that particular moment. Like he could suddenly carry the entire world on his shoulders. For the first time ever, he felt good about himself.
He knew just how tight-lipped and reserved Hera was so saying something like this to him had definitely taken a lot of courage and a lot of guts. He felt proud to know that he was the first person that she had ever opened up about her feelings to. This right here, was the moment he had always craved. The moment he had always wanted to happen. He had been waiting for this day patiently and now, it had finally happened. And to think that his day at the office had been nothing but a series of anger and blatant irritation only to come back and hear those words directly from her mouth.
If he was having a bad day before, he was definitely feeling better now. A whole lot better. If he knew that things would turn out like this and that Hera would eventually fall for him, he would’ve introduced Ben into the picture years ago. Anyways, it’s happening now and that’s what matters.
“Are you okay?” He asked when he noticed how quiet she had become. She was no longer talking and for a moment there, he had almost mistaken her for a statue. She rubbed her hands together nervously and when she brought her eyes to meet with his inquisitive ones, he saw that tears had gathered in them. She was on the verge of breaking down and the way she rubbed her hands together like a child who had been caught, proved it.
“I don’t know what to do.” She answered in a low voice. A stray tear rolled down her cheeks and she wiped it away massively. Hera was sure that she liked Bryce. If she was being honest with herself, she more than liked him but she felt guilt deep from inside her. Like she had done something very bad and unforgivable. Like she had done the unthinkable. What would the sisters at the convent think of her now if they should find out about this? Would they hate her or worse?
The main aim of coming here was to find a job so that she can live a better life but now she has gone and Involved her heart in it and she doesn’t know how to feel about what she had just said to him. She felt like a fhim too. She had been trying to suppress her feelings and one outing was all it took to come running down at her.
Bryce took steady steps towards her so that he doesn’t scare her away. The last thing he wanted was for her to run out on him. He couldn’t afford that at this very moment. When he was sure that he had gotten close enough, he held her with both hands and pulled her towards him. She willingly gave in without fighting, without struggling and without any form of resistance.
“You didn’t do anything bad Cara.” He ran his hands smoothly up and down the slate of her small back. “Liking someone isn’t a crime you know. It’s just like saying that you like God or something like that.” Damn!
He doesn’t even know what he was saying. Was he quoting the scriptures now? He has never had to convince someone about love or anything related to that topic. The length that he was willing to go for this woman baffled him to the core. “And if it makes you feel any better, I like you too Hera. Screw that, I love you Hera.”
She pulled herself away from his warm and gentle embrace. She couldn’t believe what he had just said to her or maybe she heard wrong. Bryce doesn’t know how to love a woman. He doesn’t believe in love either. His parents failed relationship had robbed him of the chance of loving anymore properly or being happy so he definitely couldn’t mean what he had just said to her, right?
Maybe he said it to calm her down so that she doesn’t feel bad about confessing her feelings to him. That was the only reasonable explanation to what he had just said to her.
“Liking someone isn’t wrong and trust me, you didn’t do anything bad okay?” Bryce tried to console her but knowing Hera, this was far from over. She’d question everything she believed in at this point and blame herself to the point of no return. He had to get through to her somehow and he had to make her understand that she wasn’t alone in this. Her thought of liking him just as friends had backfired so greatly and now, she doesn’t know where to begin or how to take it all in.
“Hey…” He primped, holding up her chin with his index finger as he gently forced her to look at him. “You didn’t do anything bad and you’re not wrong for liking someone Hera. Now, how about I change into something comfortable and come back to tuck you in later?”
She nodded vehemently. “Please do.” She whispered softly. He led her to the couch and made her sit on it before sprinting into his side of the bedroom. When he was finished, he joined her back in the living room where she was eagarly and patiently waiting for him to come back. Her favorite show on the television was on but she was barely paying any attention to it. She couldn’t even bring herself to focus on today’s episode.
“Are you ready to sleep yet?” He asked, towelling his hair but she shook her head negatively. The last thing on her mind right now was getting under the covers even though it felt like a reasonable thing to do. He took his position on her thighs while she took over from him to dry up his hair. It helped to distract her for a while and she couldn’t be more grateful.
“Do you think I’ll be able to get past this?” She asked and he sat up. He suddenly straightened himself on his seat next to her. What does she mean by being able to get past this? Why does she want to get past this?
“No.” He answered almost immediately. “That’s not how it works Cara. You just can’t get past it.” Hell. Where are all these thoughts coming from? He wouldn’t let her get past it. Not now, not ever.
She sighed deeply. “Well, at least it’s good though… that I like you instead of someone else. I can learn to live with that.” She chuckled politely. “I like the fact that it’s you instead of someone else.”
He sucked in a sharp breath, reeling in his emotions as quickly as they came. She was saying things to him. Things that felt like deep confessions that tugged at his heart strings. “God, forgive me but I can’t do this anymore.” And that was the only warning she got before he kissed her thinly parted lips as though his life depended on it. For a moment there, she kissed him back. He didn’t imagine it. She actually did kiss him back.
He broke the kiss and plastered their foreheads together. “I know i said that i won’t do anything Hera but…” He paused and then, “I want you. I want you so bad that it hurts.” He declared openly in a low and gruff voice.
“Ever since you left with Ben this morning, i have been loosing my mind to the point where i thought that i would actually go crazy.” He started, spilling out the words as they formed in his head. “God, what am i even saying? I did go crazy Hera. I never liked the fact that you were smiling at each other or that you were hugging him. I badly wanted to come over and ruined that date because i didn’t even want you spending any more time with him. I wanted it to be me so badly.”
“Do i sound crazy because it feels as if I’m sounding crazy?” He asked and she chuckled lightly. “I honestly don’t know what’s wrong with me Hera but i do know that you’re at the centre of it all so please, put me out of my misery Bellesima.” He pleaded in a deep voice that warmed up her insides.
“I know that I’m not the purest man on earth Hera but i do know that i care about you a whole lot. Believe me, I’m not forcing you to agree to this. In fact, you can even disagree with this. You can say no and walk away. I promise that i won’t force you neither will i push it. I will step back and even pretend that none of this ever happened. I am slowly loosing my mind and i needed to put this out there because-”NôvelDrama.Org holds © this.
She touched his cheeks with her hands. A small smile playing on her lips. “I want you too Bryce. I want to make love with you too.” She answered, leaving him speechless and at a loss for words.