Chapter 35
Chapter 35
Poppy walks in but Colt is
already up and standing
straight with his arms
crossed. He is so fast that
even I’m surprised but
Poppy still looks at him with confusion and then her eyes flicker to me. I am lying on the sofa with my clothes all disheveled. I quickly sit up and pat my clothes down.
“I…came to bring you this.” She holds a tray with bread
and a bit of food.
“Oh! I thought Wa-…father
said I wasn’t allowed to have
any.”
“I know but he doesn’t have
to know and it is not much.”
She looks at Colt. “Why are you in here?”
“She was asking me for food.”
He says.
I immediately nod. “And he said I couldn’t have any. He
is so mean.”
She smiles and hands me the
trey. “Oh honey, he’s not
mean. He’s just doing his job.
Alexis here is one of the
good ones.” She walks back
to the door and when she is
about to go out, she
whispers. “Be careful you
two.”
I look at Colt and he looks
back at me too. I can see his
concern.
I am now panicking. “I…I don’t want to but…maybe we should stop.”
“And how are we going to do that? Can we, Cass? Can we stop? Cause I can tell you that I have no will in me to make me stop wanting you.”
He is right. I don’t think I
can stop. I don’t want to.
“Besides…the minute Garret
found out, we were done.
Warrick knows already.” He
says.
“What?! But you said…”
“I lied. I didn’t want you to
worry.”
“But why didn’t he do or say anything?”
Colt sits next to me and puts a hand on my cheek. “He’s a smart man. He’ll probably use this later on. Or maybe he did say something and
Warrick is waiting to use this
information.”
I move his hand away and shake my head. “Then we
can’t, right? We should…I…” I
sigh unable to get my words
out.
He gives me a tender smile. “What I am saying with this, Angel, is that there is no need for us to stop. Might as well enjoy it while we can.
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“Will he do anything to us?
How are you so calm about
this?”
He shrugs his shoulders. “I guess because I know that if
anyone is going to get
punished by this…it’s not going to be you.”
“What? That is still not okay.”
“Cass…just enjoy this
moment we have right now.”
I narrow my eyes. “Are you telling me to shut up?”
“I would never tell you that.”
“Yeah? As if you didn’t just slap me and you said you’d never do that.”
I am only messing with him.
He gasps. “That was all you. I would never put my hands
on you like that.”
I laugh finding his expresison funy.
He smiles and pulls me to sit
on his lap. He hugs me and
then nuzzles my shoulder.
This is the most comfortable
I have ever felt with anyone. I like this feeling. The feeling of being wanted, of being
loved.
“I wasn’t expecting you to come into my life when you did.” He says.
I pull back just a bit and look
at him, remembering that
man I met back in the cells.
He looks and feels so
different now from that
man.
My hand traces his cheek
and then follows the lines of
his scars.
“You…you changed, Colt. Didn’t you?”
It’s crazy because it hasn’t been that long but I see it. He
is different than the man I
met back then.
He looks at me and nods. “I
was so angry, Cass. I was so
angry back then. I always
thought that if I ever came
back, if I ever stood in the presence of Warrick, I would kill him or die trying. I wanted revenge and never thought of anything else. But now, all I think about is you.
All I think about is how I
want you to be safe. And if enduing that man again is what keeps you safe, then I
will do so.”
I press my forehead to his. “That is not fair for you. you deserve to be happy, Colt.”
“I am happy when I am with you.” Before I can say
anything cheeky, he
continues. “I am at peace
when I am with you. I am myself. I don’t have to
pretend…to be strong, to
have no emotions. You see
1. me. I think you always have.”
I close my eyes as I feel him, I feel his presence. “I wish…I wish you would have been
my mate.”
“Mh, I think we would have
been amazing together.” He
says.
“Would you have accepted
me back then when we were
young? If I had been your
mate?”
“Yes.” He doesn’t hesitate but
I feel skeptical about it.
“Are you sure about that? You
didn’t know me back then as
you do now. How can you be sure that you wouldn’t have
acted like your brothers?”
“Cass, if you had been my goddess–given mate, I would
not have thought it twice. I
would have loved the f**k
out of you because you were
meant for me. You would
have meant to be mine.”
I smile, liking that answer.
“We are not mates…but why
does it feel like we are?”
“Because…this is real, Cass.
Because we are kindreds.
Because we see into each
other’s souls. Because we’ve
both been scarred and
broken yet now learn to love
again. Because we choose
each other.”
He traces his hand through the scars on my shoulder.
“Two scarred Alphas learning to love.”
“So…this is love, then?” I
whisper.
He looks directly into my eyes. “You can deny it all you
want…but this is love.” His
eyes go down suddenly now looking afraid. “I don’t deserve you.”
“What? Why would you say
that?”
“I…there are…‘
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“What is it?”
His expression changes to a
remorseful one. “Secrets.
There are still secrets.”
I can see how torn he is
about this.
“It’s okay. You can tell me anything.”
He looks up at me, into my eyes. “You are going to hate
me.”
“You know what? No. I don’t
think I could ever hate you.”
His shoulders hump down
and he looks sad.
“Colt, it’s okay. We have
time. Tell me when you are ready.”
Now he looks at me as if he
was admiring me and then
he k*sses me. I welcome his
embrace. I cling to the back
of his head, pushing him closer not that it is possible
because there is no more
space between us. I want
him. I want him to make
love to me. There is tension
in the air. My b*dy burns for him and I know he wants me
too. My hands start caressing
his chest over his shirt but he pulls away for a few seconds
to look at his watch and then
he sighs.
“Serge will be here any
minute, Cass. We can’t.”
I close my eyes with a huff in disappointment.
“Can’t we go for a run like
last time?”
He smiles. “You want me,
huh?”
“Oh shut up. But yes, I do.”
He smiles and his face lights up. I love to see genuine happiness on his face.
“Unfortionetly Angel, you
are grounded. If someone spots us outside, there will be problems this time.”
I give him a pouty face which makes him laugh.
“Stop being so cute. I’ll do
you extra good next time if you are a good girl for me.”
Somehow, that excites me.
Not sure if it’s about the
extra good part or if it’s because he told me to be a good girl but I am all for it.
”
He gets up, gives me one last
k*ss, and then walks out of
the door to wait for Serge.
I take in a deep breath, alone in my room again. I lie back
on the sofa and start
thinking about what he said.
Love…is it, love…
I smile.
I think I am in love. I have
never felt like this before about anyone. I never knew he could be so amazing but then again, out of all the brothers, he was the more
reasonable one. I want to
think that he was telling the
truth. That he wouldn’t have
done the same thing as Ezra. I mean, he could have had any girl he wanted and still is able to have any girl he
wants but he chooses me.
Two knocks on my door
make me sit up.
Colt slips his head in. “Serge
is here. He’ll be guarding you
tonight.”
I want to run to him and k*ss
him good night but I just
nod.
He gives me a wink and closes the door. I fall asleep thinking about him.
The next morning I am training again with Victor. I
try to concentrate but all I look forward is to lunch,
when Colt will change places
with Serge.
“I think we should
incorporate a bit of running
in your training.”
“Why?”
“Because you’ve only thrown a few punches but you are already winded.”
huff, blowing a hair from my face.
“You mean… running in
human form?”
“Yes.”
I make a fake crying face. I
am sure that I am not going to enjoy it one bit but I also don’t want to complain
about it. I know I need to
listen and do what he tells
me in order to learn to fight.
After my training, I eagerly head to the dining room. I
patiently eat and wait till finally Colt arrives.
I think this is the highlight of my day.
I give him a smile while he
stoically walks towards
Serge.
“About time,” I mutter when
he settles behind me.
“Missed me, huh?” He
whispers.
I giggle. “Yep, big time.”
“Alexis!” The girl Julia calls
for him.
She sits a seat away from me
and smiles at him.
“Where have you been? I
missed you!”
“I am working right now, Julia.”
I get that that is exactly what he has to say but it pisses me
off. I want him to tell her to
f**k off, that he has eyes for
me and only me and to leave
him alone.
Taking a slow breath, I calm
myself knowing that this is all my jealousy.
“Oh.” Julia looks at me.
“Yeah, sorry. He’s all mine
right now.” I say, unable to control myself.
Whoops.
That came out very catty. I
guess I didn’t calm myself enough.
“It’s fine…I guess. I mean he is just doing his job. I’ll get him later.” She has an
attitude as she says this.
To say that I want to claw this girl’s face off is an NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.
understatement.
“Hmh, that might be difficult
since he spends ALL of his
time with me.‘
Oh boy…what the hell am I doing?
I can hear Colt clearing his throat behind me.
“I am sure he will get a
much–needed break from
you eventually. I’ll be there
when he does.”
Colt puts a hand on my shoulder before I can say or
do anything. “Your brother is waiting for you. We should go.”
Huffing a breath out, I get up and leave the room seething.
“I’ll see you soon, Alexis,” Julia says but Colt doesn’t
answer.
“What was that?” he asks me
once we are in the hall.
“What do you think that was?” Before he can answer, I abruptly stop walking and point a finger at him. “You are mine.”
He looks shocked and so am
1. I have never been
possessive like this before.
“I…I am all yours.” He now
says with a smirk.
“Yeah, laugh it all up. It’s not
going to be funny when I
break her face.”
He chuckles. “I never
thought I would find this so
cute.”
“Stop it.”
He smiles as his hand
reaches my cheek and
caresses me. “You have
nothing to worry about with
her or with anyone. You are
all I want.”
I nod. “And you better stick
to that.”
“Always,” he replies, smiling.
We make our way to the war
room but this time we don’t
have our way with each
other in the closet. Garret
was angry yesterday and I don’t want to make him
angry again so I go directly to the war room where
everyone starts to gather.