Chapter 34
Chapter 34
Hailey's POV
Today was our last day here...
It has been a few days since I last saw or spoke to Jaxon, who left my room without a word or fight.
Part of me blamed myself, that had I been less of a coward, maybe I would have put up a fight with my
evil stepmother but I could never be brave enough. I am not there yet and even if my wolf is as brave
as my alpha father, I am just not there yet.
Maybe the animal and human side has not connected yet, making me confident and fearless... maybe I
listen more to my human side since it is all I have known all my life. I may never know...
Another part of me is angry. I am angry that Jaxon would think even after two minutes of training, I
would stand a chance against a shera that has been a wolf all her life. The audacity to even say it out
loud, the audacity of having such unrealistic expectations of me.... and to spend days not talking to me
or coming to apologize for being so insulting.
He has continued to keep his distance from me...
I know he is spending time with Azuri because she has not come to bother me at all. She has also kept
her distance, never bothering me and god knows I have tried to sniff her out around the pack house or
anywhere near me and I could not get anything, not in the morning or at night and during the day...she
has been away. My heart aches, I won't lie. It aches for Jaxon, I have to fight with myself not to look for
him and apologize on his behalf just to have him close to me and not that damn parasite.. Something
about being a shera and just completely acting a fool just to keep the peace.. this is when I can be glad
to still be listening to my human side because I can also be stubborn as hell. Stubbornly a coward, a
stubborn girl all around and I will proudly remain...
Cayden knocks on my door before walking in to drop off fresh clothes and walking right out. I have
been cranky since Jaxon, since our little fight and Cayden was smart enough to keep away after I
decided he deserved to get the short end of my very moody stick instead of Jaxon, who went awol so
somebody had to get it... I felt bad but I could not help it.. Jaxon was not speaking to me because I
could not protect my own life and the shame just goes past him and I clearly can't face anyone from my
pack right now. I mean, how can I? because what if they thought the same thing? Their future alpha an
open coward who admitted publicly that another shera saved her from doom and she failed to save
herself, never mind the fact that as an alphas daughter, she is responsible for the protection of the lives
of her people.
He walks out without saying a word, like Jaxon and I let him. Usually I would ask what is stuck up his
ass and he would not answer but it is always worth a try.. just not today, today I let things go. If Jaxon
wants nothing to do me then everyone else can follow him. Every one except for my father who is hell
bent on teaching my lovely mate a lesson on appreciating mates while they are still alive and not being
a complete ass to them when they need you the most.
I obviously cannot compare my mother to myself but my father hates the fact that Jaxon is letting his
feelings win.. feelings he allows to cloud his judgement over the fact that I almost died get the better of
him. My dad wants Jaxon to appreciate that he still has me, I am still alive and able to fulfill the
prophesy with him.
I get dressed quickly to get this farewell breakfast over with. I can't sit with Jaxon another minute if he
chooses to be childish and to ignore me. Even his dad has taken notice of the tension brewing between
us... I would be ignorant to say the entire pack or everyone around us does not feel it. It is as thick as
cake and we would need the biggest butcher knife to cut it, making shit easier for everyone around us.
Jaxon was stubborn like me and if we can not work past this little mishap of poor communication, I
worry of our future.
Although even I choose to be childish. Years have gone by and I pride myself in being able to confront
my feelings.. hence I can easily detect my cowardice and accept it but with Jaxon, my stubborn nature
has taken a new turn. Something about not letting him win and to be honest, it was costing me.
Jaxon proposed to me not so long ago and now we were not enjoying premarital bliss with each other,
we were barely arguing. We just refused to speak to each other, to Azuri's amusement.. possibly
pleasure. I know she was enjoying this, ready to say to my face how she is much better at keeping
Jaxon happy than I am. The only thing she was missing here was that, she was the only one sacrificing
happiness to keep the other. Jaxon, given the choice would choose me every damn time even in his
anger but Azuri would rather lie to herself and believe that Jaxon will soon see the error of his ways
and choose her at last. ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .
That is what I tell myself, that is what I say to myself when I try to make sense of why she would save
me. I don't understand the werewolf love life as yet but I know that if I was eliminated, she would stand
a better chance with Jaxon. So why save me?
I walk out of my room, my hair straightened and with a little make up on thanks to Miriam before I
undeservedly chopped her head off. I can say that I looked great... The pair of leggings and crop top
given to me was showing off the new muscles I was attaining slowly from just merely being a werewolf
and a little bit of the exercises I was doing. My legs were super toned, my arms too and my abs were
screaming washboard over 6 times but who is counting? To say my glutes were singing praises to the
moon would be bragging.
I paired my outfit with my new Nike sneakers and I hop my way down the stairs to the dining hall where
Jaxon sat with his beautiful Azuri and friends. My father stood sneering at an oblivious mate, the mates
parents sat ashamed of their son's actions and I pretended to walk in with my head held high. Today, I
choose to be a different person.
I will do better in fighting for my pack and getting stronger for them. Not just for myself, but for
everyone. Whoever's life depends on me staying alive, whoever that was born in the pack that I am
supposed to rule. Nobody knows that I have been secretly running to the woods to train... they don't
know that I had a helper. Someone that hated seeing me ignored and forsaken. My father, just like me,
has had enough and this time, we made a promise to each other... I would make Jaxon work hard for
my love this time and father will do everything in his power to make me the strongest shera to ever
walk this planet.
I chose to trust my father and believe in myself.
Why would he lead me astray? The man I am supposed to love and trust has left me to my own
defenses. In the time when I needed him the most, choosing to spend that time with his ex, the girl he
promised I should never worry about.
Well, this is when they all learn a very important lesson.
Never mess with a girl hellbent on change and a consistent father, backing her up.