I Rejected You, Alpha

ELEIA’S POV

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Aiden comes up , b***d on his hands , those big veiny hands that makes me feel safe are full of b***d .

I stand up from the couch , staring at him wide eyed , thinking that maybe he got hurt .

“Are you okay ?” I ask , halting as he smiles at me .

The smile makes me feel warm , but the sight of his bloody hands makes it cold .

He marches over to the bathroom and I follow suite , freezing in the door frame .

“Is he…”

Dead Eleia , is he dead , just say it .

“Is he dead ?” I finally ask , his back turned to me as he washes his hands .

“Of course .” I could hear the grin in his tone and some part of me feels lost .

Some part of me is confused as to how he could just kill him , but I guess if someone killed Rosie , I would want them dead too .

‘He’s an alpha , stop underestimating him .’ Crystal snaps at me and my eyes eiden at her tone .

I don’t necessarily like it , but she is right and it’s not like Aiden killed Regan for no reason .noveldrama

“I have to go to their pack and you are going to stay here .” He demands and I roll my eyes .

“Of course .” My gaze lowers and I watch my foot swing back and forth .

“What do you mean by that ?” His tone is harsh .

My gaze drags up to him and his scrunched up face makes me roll my eyes .

“I mean that even if he’s dead , you still want me to stay here like I’m your possession , like I am jot a person but a thing .”

“I don’t think that , but I have no certainty that they won’t attack when I take Regan’s head to them .” His head shakes , his messy raven locks shaking along too .

“I can defend myself .” I scoff , “You are pregnant Eleia .” He frowns , stepping closer as he dries his hands .

“Pregnant , not useless .”

“You can get hurt , you can’t even shift .” He argues and everything he is saying makes sense , but I don’t actually care .

I know that I can’t go , but I want to , I want to see all their faces , I want to see his parent’s faces , I want to see his new mate’s face .

If they had mated , she probably felt his death and I am not sorry at all .

She was something that did not belong to him , she was a fake and it’s a scandal that men can choose a mate while we females have no choice just because they are bigger and stronger .

“Whatever .” I turn on my heel , looking at him forces a strong feeling in my chest , making me feel like I can’t breathe at the sight of him .

He infuriates me beyond my limit .

“Eleia , please don’t be mad .” He begs as tears form in my eyes , but I don’t want him to beg , I want him to disappear .

“Eleia .” His heavy footsteps are behind me before he catches my arm .

I swing it as I turn , hitting his jaw with the back of my hand , “Leave me alone .” I blink and the tears that were rested on the rim of my eyes roll down my cheeks .

My lips are parted as I glare at him , my narrowed eyes squeezing more salty tears out and they roll down my cheek , falling from my top l*p to my bottom one .

“What is going on with you ?” He frowns and I can’t drag my gaze away from the scratch mark on his jaw .

It fades quickly , but it was my fault that he got hurt .

I hurt him .

“Nothing…” I back away from him , “Just go .” I turn , shaking the guilt off .

“Eleia , I’m not going to go right now , especially when you are like this .”

He’s right behind me , I can feel it , I can sense it .

“Talk to me .” He mutters , begging for my attention but all I want is something he won’t give me .

For weeks he’s been or too disgusted to touch me or afraid that he’d hurt me , I don’t know which one and I certainly don’t want to know .

Whenever I trail my hand down his abdomen , he tenses up and grabs my wrist , turning me onto my other side and pulls me to his chest , holding me so that I can’t move .

I once asked him why and he said that he didn’t want to cause any harm to protect the baby .

At that moment , it made my heart swell , but literal weeks have gone by without us touching each other or having s*x and my hormones are through the roof .

“Eleia .” He rests his hand on my shoulder , turning me before pulling me into his embrace .

The warmth of his body takes me in , relaxing me a little bit , but the frustration builds up to where I wish my entire body would just relax , but it doesn’t .

I begin to sob and he rubs my back , but all I want is to hit him , but I don’t .

My hands fist his shirt and he pats my head , dragging it repeatedly down to my nape before starting on top again .

“Talk to me , what’s wrong ? Are you mad I killed him ?” The insecurity in his tone makes me shove him back , my red puffy eyes glare up at him .

“I don’t care if he’s dead . I don’t like him . He has nothing to do with this .” I bellow , my body bent forward as my nails dig into my palm .

“Then why are you like this ?” His hands are palms faced up as he gestures between us .

“Because you don’t want to touch me !” I yell at him at the top of my voice and his face falls as his eyes soften .

“Of course I want to Eleia .” He steps forward but I step back .

“Just stop , I know you’re disgusted with me and my child . You hate it because it’s his .” I keep him at arm’s length .

“I don’t.” He c***s his head , but I am tired of his lies , I know he feels disgusted with me , he barely holds me , he barely k****s me .

Regan’s death is the reason that he has a real smile on his face for the first time in weeks .

“Stop lying .” I choke on my words as I try to stop crying .

“Please , I will make this up to you .” He begs and I shake my head , “How ? By finally f*****g me ? No . I don’t want it . I don’t want you judging me .” I feel like I’m losing all self control and every thought that I have pent up in my brain for weeks are rolling out .

“Eleia , is that honestly what you think of me ?” He frowns and I shrug .

“It’s what I feel because that is how you act .” I mutter .

‘Calm down , our b***d pressure is high .’ Crystal growls possessively .

She’s done this a few times , letting me know when I need to stop worrying and shut my brain off to relax .

“Please go , I need rest .” I wave myself and he stares at my throat m watching me take heavy breaths before walking to his bedside table and he turns the air on .

“I’ll grab you a bottle of water .” He chews on his l*p , staring at me with sad eyes before he leaves .

I blankly stare at the door , repeatedly telling myself that everything will be okay , that I shouldn’t worry as much .

Laying down , Aiden comes back with a glass of water , staring at me with a smile as he approaches me .

“Are you okay ?”

‘Are you okay ?’ I tease in my mind as I glare at him .

“I’m fine , thanks .”

He tuts , shaking his head as he puts the glass down next to me .

“Don’t be mad at me .”

“That sounds like a demand .”

“Would you like it to be ?”

I snort , rolling my eyes .

His fingers capture my chin and he stares at me , making me look at him .

“An attitude isn’t going to get you somewhere .” He whispers , making the air leave the room .

“Well being an a*s is going to get you attitude .” I swat his hand away and there’s a glint of amusement in his eyes .

“Tell me Eleia .” His hand rests on my bump , slowing travelling more down to my legs before he masssages my thigh .

“Tell you what ?” I snap , but on the insides , my heart is racing .

“If I love you right now ? Would you feel better ?” His eyebrow raises at me .

Yes

“No . Because you don’t want to .” I deadpan and his eyes grow dark .

“How do you know that ? How can you say that without knowing what I actually want ?” His fingers dig into the flesh of my thighs .

“Because first off , you’re hurting me .” I jerk my leg to the side and he lets go , shame filling his eyes , “And second off , if you wanted to , you would have already without me bringing this up .” A single tear slides down my cheek , but I refuse to act up .

I refuse to give in and let my temper win because I don’t want to lose my child .

This child has no father and I am all it has .

Regan is dead , Aiden won’t ever love the little one brewing inside me and I know that I am going to be all alone in this .

Rosie might stand with me , but she and Stefan are building their own home , she is going to have her own pup , but I know she’d side with me .

Maybe I should just leave , run , just my baby and I… But that isn’t going to be good because I have nowhere to go , I have nothing to take of the little pup .

If it weren’t for Aiden , I would be dead and I would have been at peace .

If I died in that pond , the pup would never have existed .

“I thought you needed time and I don’t want you to lose this pup Eleia .” He breathes out and I hate that he is saying all the right things , but on the other hand – he’s doing all the wrong ones .

His words don’t meet his actions and that shows how much he doesn’t want this pup with me .